Sunday, April 14, 2013

Breaking the habit

Yeap. It is time. It is finally the time I really make a decision and stick to it. No more straying, no more delusions, no more yielding to emotions.
“I don't want to be at the mercy of my emotions. I want to use them, to enjoy them, and to dominate them." -The picture of Dorian Gray
Cause after some time, you can't expect to be able to open someone's eyes. At some point, they have to open them alone.
Cause patience has also it's limits. And you can't expect someone to wait for you forever till you make up your mind.
Cause lies, betrayal, ingratitude, at some point can't be ignored.
Cause when they take you for granted, you should show them you are not a game they can play.
Cause, after all, magic comes with a price.

So, yeah. I'm finally breaking the habit. For real. Goodbye dreams. Goodbye hopes. "Goodbye my lover,goodbye my friend".

I hope you decide and find what you are looking for.

I don't want to be the one the battles always choose. Cause inside I realise that I'm the one confused. I don't know what's worth fighting for or why I have to scream. I don't know why I instigate or say what I don't mean. I don't know how I've come this way, I know it's not alright. So I'm breaking the habit, I'm breaking the habit tonight.