Tuesday, November 1, 2016

Numb

Ever get the feeling that you don't know what the hell you are doing in your life? That weird feeling of nothingness.. not being quite sad, but yet not happy. Not really stressed, but not relaxed either. Usually, when you are bored or don't enjoy what is going on in that exact moment, you think to yourself "I would prefer to be doing [enter activity here]". Ever get the feeling that you don't really know what you would prefer to be doing instead? You don't particularly enjoy the moment, yet you don't know what else would be more enjoyable. So you don't know how to make the feeling stop. What about that feeling that makes you second-guess your life choices and wonder whether you are on the path that is right for you? Or maybe it's the same feeling but disguised in a different form? And then there's the feeling "I want to go out and enjoy myself" coming head to head with "I want to stay home and do nothing" at the same time. And then not being able to tell what you would prefer to be doing, even if it is neither of those two options.
How does did feeling develop and why? How does it go away? Does it ever really go away?

Sunday, March 20, 2016

And maybe when the stars align again in the night sky, when the butterfly flaps its wings against the warm air and the clouds make way for the silver moonlight, maybe then you will come back to me. And then the stars will laugh with your laughter and all nature will start singing the song that only we know. And just like before, the world will be dancing in synchronisation to the symphony of our story and the waves of the sea will give way to the wondrous love that will start pouring out from the depths of our united heart.