Monday, April 30, 2012

The Finality.

That's what's makes it the most difficult of all. The most painful. That realisation is enough to set the tears rolling,enough to make those submerged feelings in the ashes of the Dark Days, see the light of day again.
Enough to tear someone apart. Maybe not just one person this time.
The Finality. The end of an era of life. The end of a cycle.
Yes. Just as expected.
The time to finally grow up and get on with life.
The Finality. The end.
But also, the start of something new. A new life. A new bond. A new friendship(?) 
I just want to you to know that when everyone else had lost faith in you, I was still there. When everyone wouldn't bother to hear you, I was still there.
And I want you to know that when everyone else said I should give up on you, I didn't. When they said I deserve better, I didn't listen to them. I always didn't.

All because I love you.

Monday, April 23, 2012


And just when things couldn’t get any more complicated.. we made them worse. Tangled. Tangled. Tangled.
Hooray for me for having the idea.
Hope for no regrets. 
Embrace the results of your choices. 
Good luck to us to figuring things out.
Fingers crossed.

"Kisses sweet, but complicated, burning bright, but sadly faded."

Friday, April 13, 2012


Being right all along. So what? Same shit.
Και καταραμένο τέλος it is, indeed.
Rewrite over the tape? Nah. Not even a glimpse of hope.
And I'm angry. Angry at you, angry at those fools, angry at myself. Because If you really cared, you wouldn't believe them. If you really cared, you wouldn't mind. If you really cared, you would have tried. You would have faught for it. Seems like you don't. And I've been again the fool. I've fallen into that dark pit again, only to find myself trying to get out again, not sure of the way to do it.
It's like the tears are not enough anymore, they can't bring redemption to the soul. That's why they don't make their appearance. Sometimes it feels like everything can go back to normal. But what is, normal? Pretending each other does not exist? Or being "friends" which didn't actually turn out to be true. Cause we suck at frienship. And maybe that's the problem.
Do you still care? Do you still remember? Do you still feel the way you did? If you do,then why the hell are we doing this?! Why?
And I can't imagine anyone's lips touching mine,than yours. Or anyone's touch. It's like we were manufactured to fit together as puzzles, only now some of the pieces are missing and we suddenly can't be together again.

Words are not enough and they can never be. And I know, oh I know that when I find out those little spies..they'll wish they had never even made a thought about me. I don't know how or when. I just know someday, they'll regret the time they spilled out those poisonous words. Those words that weren't supposed to  affect you in any way, if you were smart enough to see beyond them, smart enough to trust only your heart.

Unless your heart has been poisoned,too.
"They taped over your mouth, scribbled out the truth with their lies, your little spies."
I know I'm focusing on this one little reason. But is the one that makes me the angriest of all. Cause they had no right. NO F**KING RIGHT. Cause they are all hypocrites. This is why. And because you always have a trend to believe whatever their big mouth says,without even telling me. Because even if you say you don't want anyone involved in this, you let them get involved yourself by just taking them into account!

Really, shame on you.

And I can't wait of the time that I'll finally be outta here. Oh yes, just 5 months from now. And you'll be sorry again, just like you were before. But this time there will be no other chances. Oh how I long for a different life, different people. Who don't go mess up around with your life, keep their gossips to themselves and MIND THEIR OWN BUSYNESS. If such people exist.

So this is goodbye then. Farewell. I hope you know what you meant to me...

"Now that I've tried everything,I'll numb the pain till I am made of stone."